End of Year Resolution

2018 is coming up and I don't know about you guys but I am determined to beat some sanity into the Picasso painting that is my life. The problem is that I say this every year and every year I completely and utterly fail. So I am embarking on a journey of self discovery and organization and I would love for you, my wonderful readers to join me.

Just kidding! I know the only person who reads my blogs is imaginary friend Bob. (hi bob! how's the wife?) So today I’m gonna tell y’all my game plan because if I don’t put it out there for the world (or bob) to see then it will NOT get done.

My biggest problem when it comes to my productivity is my mental and physical health. In case some of you don’t know, I have been diagnosed with clinical depression and I am also trying to get a diagnosis for various physical problems as well, the biggest of which is my digestion. I have very unpredictable stomach aches that have caused me to practically avoid eating altogether. In a typical day I probably consume around 300 calories which is a VERY BAD THING and it’s probably the reason I am so tired all the time. No fuel = no working engine. So I’m going to change this.

my problems and while I don’t fully think that it’s going to fix everything I am going to start exercising. I’m super lucky that my college has a free fitness center for me to go to and while I love taking walks around campus I’d really love to watch videos on my phone while I’m in an air-conditioned room. What can I say? I’m a nerd.

At the moment my pantry is absolutely bursting full of food I don’t

want and will probably never eat; it’s basically the equivalent of looking at a full closet and saying I have nothing to wear. So it’s getting donated and we are starting over! As of right now I will only be buying foods that I definitely will eat and that are good for me in some way. I’m gonna ask some friends for good meals to make during the weekend and eat over the week because my lunch at the moment is a cup of ramen and I promise you right now I will not have the patience to make my lunch every day for school!

As for my depression, I think planning my day out and having a set schedule is going to be a key to lessening the stress in my life, however, as a child my family tried to implement one and it ended up causing more harm than good. Stress to get everything done in the time I was given and the pressure of being grounded if I didn’t get it all done made everything so much more stressful than it needed to be. When I finally get my schedule implemented I will make sure to give you whatever advice I can. (even though I have no idea what I’m doing)

It’s also been told to me time and time again that exercise is the cure-

all for all that ails me and while I don't necessarily believe it'll fix everything I know it's supposed to help with depression and it's just something that's important to do. I am fortunate enough to have a free fitness center on my campus and I am going to bring my phone to watch videos which will make the experience more enjoyable. Yes I'm a nerd, don't judge me.

And finally I am going to declutter! I am a hoarder of things I don’t need or want. My bathroom is agony to clean because I never throw away a single jar, bottle, or box. My bedroom is covered in junk that I used once and never bothered to look at again. And my closet is full to bursting with clothes I’ve either outgrown or feel uncomfortable in. So we are cleaning house! Goodbye nearly empty lotion bottles, hello bathroom cabinet with neatly organized feminine hygiene products! I can’t wait to have all my hair ties color coordinated.

Now since I am bringing you on this journey with me I am making a decision to post something every week for the rest of 2017. I want to document the experience and keep myself accountable. As I begin to organize I will share the process and how it works for me since the goal here is to set up a working system that I can take with me into the rest of my adulthood.

If you’re still here thanks for reading! It means a lot to me. (seriously bob it means a ton) I also apologise for the weird formatting. Blogger really doesn't like it when I move things over from Microsoft Word.

TTFN

That’s tata for now!